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Thoughts while pedaling... how I became born again

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have you ever had God speak to you during the most cacophonous opportunity? Last night after work while the lawn mower was running, the music blaring in my headphones as loud as possible to cover the noise of lawnmower... God Spoke.. and he told me i've never shared by conversion to Christ. So here some back ground, mom and dad chose me to represent the family at church....and didn't dig church at all, most of the girls at group were snobs, so i didn't like Christians, and to top it off this was the TV era of the endless screaming, rolex wearing, powder blue tuxedo wearing preachers...
and one more thing -- when i was little boy around 5, I encountered a TV show with a grinning sun and a haunting soundtrack and it freaked me out bad! and every night since i was 5 then it was haunting me in my dreams... then when I turned seven one night it morphed into a grinning moon... so now with a grinning sun and grinning moon and the haunting melody with dreams being either night or day.. I was terrified going to bed
fast forward to me being 19 hanging at my friends house, and his mom asking if i was christian, I said i went to church, she said that wouldn't cut it, and told me about jesus and asked I like to accept into my heart... as i was walking to the couch to pray the voices inside my head screaming at me, don't do it..don't do it do you wanna be a clone? you going to become a freak and walk and talk and carry a bible all the time like these other weirdos with that stupid look on your face! your being BRAINWASHed ! and all this noise was going on continuously as harolds mom was praying with me the prayer of salvation... the pivotal moment that changed my life forever...I remember asking God, silently If your real...please take away the nightmares! then i felt someone putting a ring on my right ring finger... after the prayer, the voice in my head still screamed weirdo, .. but to this day, since praying the prayer of salvation-- I have never had the grinning sun, moon, or haunting melody invade me dreams or ... my reality!


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