Am I the only person that thinks If I didn’t date everybody and there mom, I would be a lot further along in my quest to live a long and fulfilling life? I look back at tall the failed relationships-- where I changed to a point of obsession to become the person they were looking for -- or I forced myself to like them, because in my heart I thought this will be the best I ever get...do you ever hear these words -- just keep running the race and after a while if you look over and see that proverbs 32 woman or man of God... keep running... because Father God will make your path intercept... for the longest time I thought this was just malarky... and then after six failed relationships... with major pining of why doesn’t she want me.... I gave up the search and said forget it --- I’m not going to date anymore--- 2 months later mr freewheeling and fancy free meets ms. right at a singles party --- and would you believe Father God spoke that night and said this is the one for you? So I hate to parrot the keep running proverb, but boy would life been much simpler I focused on the run to Christ and was suprised by the colision of my soul mate beth.
In the wake of the destruction that was my life, I found myself lost and alone. Happiness had become a fleeting memory of days long gone. One evening in the quiet of my living room I sat and questioned God why someone who had been so devoted to his marriage was in such a place. God had helped me through tough times before and that night I placed this mess which was my life in his hands again, for the last time ... I'm here to stay!
Since that day I have resumed my Bible reading and started to listen to the uplifting music that gives a message of hope and healing. I have started to rebuild my life, working to improve lost relationships with friends and doing things to meet new ones. I have gotten help to get my finances under control and started working out again. My job keeps me from being able to attend church on Sundays, I am working on changing that too.
About Ms. Right, I have stopped looking ... GOD already knows where she is and in His time I will too. Until then I will enjoy the new found happiness I have found in not always being in control and letting Him take care of the BIG PICTURE!!