I have decided to take the same approach to finding that special woman. After my marriage of 20 years came crashing down, crushing the dream of happily ever after and leaving me feeling broken and alone, I was determined to find MS. Right. I joined on-line dating sites and dated, not to enjoy the company but to continue the quest. After a period of time I was frustrated and miserable. I found I was contorting myself to fit someone else's mold. I was overlooking things in the beginning of the relationship that left me questioning what I was going and looking for a face saving way out. I am sure there were people I dated that would have been a great friend to have, but were left in the dust because I wasn't looking for a friend.

In the wake of the destruction that was my life, I found myself lost and alone. Happiness had become a fleeting memory of days long gone. One evening in the quiet of my living room I sat and questioned God why someone who had been so devoted to his marriage was in such a place. God had helped me through tough times before and that night I placed this mess which was my life in his hands again, for the last time ... I'm here to stay!

Since that day I have resumed my Bible reading and started to listen to the uplifting music that gives a message of hope and healing. I have started to rebuild my life, working to improve lost relationships with friends and doing things to meet new ones. I have gotten help to get my finances under control and started working out again. My job keeps me from being able to attend church on Sundays, I am working on changing that too.

About Ms. Right, I have stopped looking ... GOD already knows where she is and in His time I will too. Until then I will enjoy the new found happiness I have found in not always being in control and letting Him take care of the BIG PICTURE!!